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a minute today

December 1, 2008

Another year, another December 1st, another World Aids Day.

Please take a minute to reflect upon how HIV/AIDS has touched your life, or the life of people you love.

“It is complete now, two ends of time are neatly tied

A one way street, she’s walking to the end of the line

And there she meets the faces she keeps in her heart and mind

They say, “goodbye”

Tomorrow Wendy is going to die”



October 21, 2008

It was around this time three years ago when this actively became a blog about two girls trying to make a baby. And now, I guess it’s time to realize that at this moment that isn’t meant to be.

It’s kind of with a heavy hand that I’m writing this all – there is such sadness in me over it  – it’s something that I want so badly but know that now is not the time.

So I guess that’s it…The toll that the whole process has taken has done an incredible number on my relationship with S. And in some ways, I think, all of the pressure and angst and anxiety over it kind of just found it’s way into our lives and that’s just how living was. And that’s not good enough for S. And it’s not good enough for me.

We need desperately to work on “us,” and to focus and re-group and remember that our best days have been days spent with each other, and that we need to work more on making those days happen.

There’s a ton of stuff to say but I don’t quite know how yet. For now, I guess, this is the end of one journey and the beginning of another.

I’m so thankful for all of the support that this incredible internet community has given me. I’ve made some of my closest connections with people “here,” and some of you are my “peeps,” who I turn too in times of crisis and need. Thank you all so much.

I’ve spent the last couple of days deleting certain links from my blogroll – it’s just too hard right now. I hope you understand.

I don’t exactly know how this space will evolve, or if it even will.  My head is swimming in a pool filled with some of the hardest emotions I’ve ever had to wade through.

Thanks for everything.


Waterfire weekend

August 18, 2008

Ok, well not a whole weekend. But on Saturday evening S, A, and I journeyed two hours south to the beautiful little city of Providence, RI, for the annual Waterfire event, where numerous bonfires are placed along the Providence river and lit for all to enjoy. There was music and street food and drinking in public and a really good time.

I hadn’t visited Providence since the mid/late Nineties and honestly, the city was sort of a shithole at that point in time. It has seriously undergone some huge turn around because it was clean and well lit and beautiful.  I could see myself living in a small city like that – somewhat bigger than Portland, with a “real” mall, and lots of college students to keep things interesting.  It was fun because A had worked at one of those colleges not too long ago and it was interesting when she bumped into people (like campus safety officers) who still called her out by name – and it was nice to have a knowledgeable guide to the town.

Can I mention again how much I loved the mall? No, we didn’t spend a tremendous amount of time there, just money. Have I ever mentioned how Nordstrom is perhaps the only retail store that S REALLLLY loves shopping at? I mean, she loves shopping but she REALLLLY loves Nordstrom and their “personal shoppers,” who make perfectly sized garments appear if by magic in the dressing rooms.

That’s not to say that I didn’t have my fun too – I dropped some change at Dave and Busters, one of my favorite places.  Both of the other members of my entourage quickly realized that taking me somewhere real to gamble is probably not a good idea – my favorite thing is dropping the coins into the games that push other coins over the ledge….I could sit there forever blowing money away like that.  It was awesome – well, except for the one moment when I realized that my brother, sister, and I went to a DnB the night my dad died – I hadn’t remembered it until I was actually there, about to get some coinage off my power card.

After playtime we headed back up the hill to wander some more, eat some food, and um, then S decided that she was going to get pierced below the neck (I’m not going to say where, but I’ll say she only got one of them done though she was born with two) and though she’d talked about it a few times recently it was still the most spontaneous thing I’ve ever seen her do. Yay S. Way to let loose. I can’t always be the crazy one and it’s nice to have you join me for the ride.

Everything after that was anti-climatic and it was getting on in the day – so we headed home and it was LOVELY driving North – as (you New Englanders will know this well) traffic was backed up from the Hampton tolls all the way through Portsmouth and into Maine. NUTS! I’m glad we were going the other way.

It was nice to get out of town for a little bit, relax, enjoy a newish city, and a really beautiful event that I wish our town had something like. It was also nice for it to not rain for once in the….month.

And: Confidential to all of you who commented on the last post. I love you all very very much and your support is so much appreciated. To answer the questions? Morrissey, yes (but more The Smiths,) 3 pairs of Doc’s, and Queen.



Wedding blog #2

May 23, 2008

So. I’m home, and exhausted, but good.

My brother’s wedding was absolutely beautiful. My Little Prince reading went over very very well, and both E and A were pleased with my selection. The wedding itself took place here, in the Eagle Rock Reservation in NJ, overlooking the Manhattan skyline. The ceremony was sweet as can be, dinner was amazing – punctuating the evening was a fireworks display that occured over lower Manhattan (it might have been Brooklyn even) that we could see from the event room. It was perfect.

A looked stunning, and my brother looked very handsome and together they make a really great looking couple – but better than that? E adores A.

I don’t blog much about family but I’ll give you some background on E. He’s weird. Weird in a good way, but weird. He has always had crazy ADD. He’s tamed it, but it’s taken over 20 years to do so. He’s quirky and sarcastic. He is perhaps the funniest person I know. He’s also a bloody genius and can pretty much fix anything. He put himself through college working as a union electrician. He got a scholarship to law school. He actually graduates tomorrow. We’re all incredibly proud of him.

Did I mention he was quirky? He has slight ocd. He’s germ phobic. We always joked that if E ever was to get with a girl she’d have to arrive in a full body condom if he ever hoped to get laid. He often reads as gay. He makes emphatic hand gestures. He bakes to help him de-stress. He spent the three days before his wedding perfecting cakes – he made the cake for his special day.

And somewhere along the way he met this beautiful girl. This girl who loves him, and for lack of a better word “handles” him really well. She’ll go with his antics and impulsiveness – to a point. She will race up the stairs of a 5 story parking garage to see if they can beat the elevator with him. She puts the hammer down when people are hungry at 9pm and try to get a reservation at the fondue place and he’s like “lets just go to Macy’s and get a fondue pot, and we can make it ourselves,” she reminds him that people are hungry NOW but that maybe they can do that for next time.

SHE’S funny. She gets him. It was hard for us to believe 3 years ago that he actually had a real live girlfriend. It amazed us when he moved in with her. Shocked us when he proposed and she said yes. And now, they’re married, forever. It is completely obvious how much he cares for and about her, and is the sweetest thing.

For the first time in my life, instead of seeing a funny and weird little boy, I saw a confident, strong man profess his love for this one perfect for him woman.

It was one of the best days ever.


wedding blog #1

May 22, 2008

There’s lots to write about my brother’s wedding and how proud of him we all are, and what a great man he has turned into….but first, I’ll show you something hysterical. They got married at a beautiful location but they have more than one “room” for events there, and this evening, my bro’s wedding was not the only event going on. When we got there there were some signs directing us to where we needed to go.

When E came down the stairs before we went out to the gazebo where the ceremony was to take place he told me, “we had to get them to change that other sign to read “I.D.” because when we got here, it read “Infectious Disease Society, ” and um, it kind of was a downer for us.”


More later, if I don’t pass out after our early flight back, and a full day of work.



May 21, 2008

Thank you all very much for your suggestions. I ALMOST went with e.e. cummings. I really did. I love that work. However, after much soul searching and thinking and going through books that I had I came up with one on my own…I’ll be doing a reading from the Little Prince. It’s the passage where the fox tells the little prince that he is untamed….and it is perfect for my brother’s wedding.

More later on the wedding itself, my brother making his own cake, cheese fries, and of course, adventures in the wilds of New Jersey.


Reason I love Maine # 4386

May 5, 2008

The MPBN Great Television Auction.

I’ve never seen anything like this but right now is a live auction for Maine public television – some of the items are incredibly cool;  vacations, nights at resorts around the state and even a hybrid car.

Some of the auction items are just hysterical, like the 2 year subscription to the Wiscasset newspaper, a really ugly beaded necklace with a pewter cross,  or perhaps an overnight at the Super 8 overlooking interstate 95  in Westbrook (bidding was up to $18 last time we checked,) and some color coded bucket covers that we weren’t really sure what they were.

Our favorite one was a evening at the Lewiston Conference center (including breakfast.) We actually almost bid for that but once it went above $40 we decided it just wasn’t worth it.   But really, what could be better than a reckless evening at Sportsman’s,  some late night food at Denny’s, and a restful sleep at the Lewiston Conference center (did I mention the deluxe buffet breakfast?)

Some days I just freaking LOVE living in Maine. Today is one of them.