check ignition and may g-d’s love be with you

July 25, 2007

I’ve been blogging about making a baby for almost two years now. We still don’t have baby. Tonight I have my first Lupron injection, in preparation for our first IVF cycle, which we’ve kind of known lay in wait for us, all along. It’s somewhat surreal, and scary, and exciting all at the same time. I’m trying to be as calm and relaxed as possible, which, if you know me, isn’t all that easy. Surprisingly, I’m really feeling ok.

I’ve got this minor dull headache that’s been plaguing me for a few days, which I’m holding the pill accountable for. I hope I manage to escape the worst of Lupron headaches, and that I don’t have too many side effects. That would be a pleasant surprise.  But that’s neither here nor there, as we’re going forward with this, no matter what.

I do wish that S was home to share this with me, but I think i’m going to take pictures and send them along to her. I keep telling myself that I can do this alone, even though I’m scared. I HAVE self injected before, it’s just been….a while. And with this first injection we enter a whole new realm of possibilities.  I am trying to quell the feelings of “something good” happening here mostly to shield myself from dissapointment….but, they’re there, and know what? Hope is an ok thing to cling too.




  1. We’re made to hope.

  2. so sorry about the headache! Hope it quiets soon.
    sending you HUGE Happy 1st Lupron inject love.
    Sucks ass that you are doing this bit solo.

    p.s. hope, when we find it, must be clung to.

  3. Thinking of you as you embark on your journey. I did my last IVF in June 2002 and sitting here playing Brats is the product of that first successful one! I have a great feeling about this!

  4. When we lose hope, we stop living and merely exist.
    We are all here for you!

  5. thinking of you!!

  6. Good luck! We’re all with you in spirit.

  7. I’m sorry S. is away and you have to self-inject. I know you can and will do it. I’m here for virtual moral support. 🙂

  8. I’m happy that you’re starting. Good luck. I hope S will be home soon. I’ve been having to self-inject, too, and it sucks, but if it helps I found that the Lupron seems even less significant in terms of pain than the Follistim pen did– particularly if you ice the area first.

  9. You’ve still got my phone number, right? If you need anything, even someone to talk through it, I’m here.

  10. Here’s to this is it!

  11. …For here am I waiting in a tin can…

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