Archive for July 25th, 2007


check ignition and may g-d’s love be with you

July 25, 2007

I’ve been blogging about making a baby for almost two years now. We still don’t have baby. Tonight I have my first Lupron injection, in preparation for our first IVF cycle, which we’ve kind of known lay in wait for us, all along. It’s somewhat surreal, and scary, and exciting all at the same time. I’m trying to be as calm and relaxed as possible, which, if you know me, isn’t all that easy. Surprisingly, I’m really feeling ok.

I’ve got this minor dull headache that’s been plaguing me for a few days, which I’m holding the pill accountable for. I hope I manage to escape the worst of Lupron headaches, and that I don’t have too many side effects. That would be a pleasant surprise.  But that’s neither here nor there, as we’re going forward with this, no matter what.

I do wish that S was home to share this with me, but I think i’m going to take pictures and send them along to her. I keep telling myself that I can do this alone, even though I’m scared. I HAVE self injected before, it’s just been….a while. And with this first injection we enter a whole new realm of possibilities.  I am trying to quell the feelings of “something good” happening here mostly to shield myself from dissapointment….but, they’re there, and know what? Hope is an ok thing to cling too.